Just start typing.
The fear of failure is real. As I step out into the unknown, to be quite honest, I feel paralyzed. Moving about my typical day, cleaning, gardening, working, I find myself in constant conversation with the Lord, and the clarity in my head is like looking into the clearest tropical waters. “This is good stuff, I’ll write it down when I slow down,” I say to myself.
I sit. Frozen.
“But God, You are the one who told me to do this,” I think to myself.
But why is it so hard?
Question after question flood my mind. Did I hear Him wrong? Who even wants to listen to me? There are plenty of people out there more qualified than I who’ve already written stories that are much more eloquent than anything I’ll even be able to write. This is silly. You’re making this about you.
Wow. Well I’m out there. Feeling pretty exposed at the moment. Good. That is exactly what the enemy fears most. Being exposed for the liar that he is (John 8:44.)
For so long I have put this off. For so long I have believed the lies the enemy has so desperately sought to sow. But not today! Today is the day …
Today I will walk by faith.
Well, it’s taken some time, but it’s done. At least for now. My intentions for this blog are to post what the Lord lays on my heart. I don’t know at this moment, what that looks like or how it will all pan out. There is so much in me that is completely terrified because I don’t consider myself a writer. Writing was never something I enjoyed in school, and it isn’t something that I ever thought I would share. Over the years the only writing that I have done “for pleasure”, is writing in my journal. Those thoughts and scribbles are so intimate. At times they are so raw, and though there are dried tear stains, the memories of time past are still so vivid. Never would I imagine sharing those thoughts out loud.
But here we are. SO – may I just say from the outset, Glory to God.
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